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It has been a tense week... a tense couple of weeks, in fact, because it has been time to write, collate and submit the reflective essay and portfolio for module 1. Whilst I really enjoyed putting the portfolio together, the essay proved less inspiring.
The portfolio was a showcase of preparatory documents coupled with the short film script that I have been working on over the module. It was fun to create, write and even to precis down until it fitted in the word count- I love a challenge.
However, the essay was unlike any other essay I have written before. Normally, anything self-reflective that I have to write will be jovial and often self-deprecating. If I need to write an academic essay, it would be in the 3rd person and from an objective standpoint, using references as needed. But... the reflective essay wants you to write about yourself (see- I am avoiding that now, even when I describe it!!!), but in an academic way and whilst using references.
Hmmmm... that was new. It was uncomfortable to write in the first person for me. I am used to hiding... especially since I became disabled and could no longer work in the 2 industries that I loved so much... I often do not feel comfortable in being visible now, because there is the expectation that I need to explain myself / my illnesses / my orthotics, etc, etc and, to be honest, I just want to keep my mind focused on the positive and creative things in my life... not fussing about other people's nosiness and discomfort. So, I am 'sooooo over' general self-reflection because I have had to do so much. I am 'soooooo over' having surgeries- 94 in 5 years is enough already- and I am 'soooooooo over' being a moaning Minnie (or 'Myrtle' for Potter fans)!!!!!!!!!
So... I dug in, corrected every sneaky 3rd person into 1st person and told myself to just get on with it. So I did. And it's done- phew!
And now, I get to go back and do the 2 study block case studies that I had to put on hold because I needed to complete the assignments- YAYYYYY!!!!!
Back to life, back to creativity...
Starting a blog as I navigate an MA is all new to me. I am generally a really private person with an 'under-the-radar' online presence, so please delight in spotting my awkwardness at sharing all the tricky moments my course will put me through! As all irritating restauranteurs say nowadays: